you've got me wondering

Still, you've definitely got me thinking and wondering what's going on in your mind. Are your mannerisms your indirect ways to tell me? If they are I don't know how much longer I'll be able to decipher the difference. A few persons have told me one or two words of advice concerning what the possibilities may be. I don't want to know what they think. The words have helped me tremendously...But, I'd rather hear it from you… Oh wait. I have. A number of times, in different formats, verbalizations, and the one that takes the cake: you're gestures. You’re always with your figures of speech and actions, making it harder to figure you out. You're driving me up the wall! There's something else that bothers me, at the fact that as hard as I can make myself believe I'm the one over-analyzing (well I am), something tells me this isn't just a figment of my imagination or driven based on desire to know...I'd go to that place and "just be" and although it wouldn't make sense of anything, it'd make me happy. Every other place just brings me back. It's definitely not the same anymore and that's with a positive connotation. All I know is that I can't prevent what makes sense inside of me from surfacing. I don't want to keep hiding anymore. Well I've failed already, yet suprisingly for some people I've kept a certain facade to their perspective. Only I can know the difference and make my decisions...Okay, not entirely true. I have the greatest guidance by God. As I've said earlier, I'm entrusting myself in God. I'm walking with God taking this journey wherever He may lead me. I laab my laab.