The days are moving fast and I can't believe that I'm a senior. It's ridiculous how time passes so quick. I thank God for everything He's blessed me with and continues to bless and reveal to me. I may not know all the answers to the World, but I'm beginning to realize and remember that all my answers lie in HIM, and only HIM.
My Mom and Ate are safely in the Philippines now and I'm a bit jealous at the fact that they are over there. But, it gives time with my Dad as well as time to myself. It's very quiet I might add. Time to bring my priorities in order and re-organize what's what. There are still plenty of assignments and projects that need to be started or continued til the end is complete.
I wanted to give up not too long ago and as much as that is appealing, I wouldn't be the person I perceive myself to be. What I'm "worth" and what I "deserve" is to be "happy". I am to "please" myself and what I "do" is "IMPORTANT".
I can't help but think that what I've been doing has been exactly what was needed and needed to be done. I've learned to learn. In a few ways I've learned to accept, to start over, to continue, to strive and to persevere.
I'd like to say I'm happy with the way life has been going for me. And well in my own way, I am happy. Mistakes have been made. Behaviors are in need to be altered. Attitudes definitely need to be adjusted. My perspectives have adapted.
I'm not so much of expecting too much or underestimating nowadays either. But I am trying to be as realistic and optimistic as I see 'fit'.
As human as I am, it gets a challenging to see where all of my actions are geared toward or finding its way to a rationalization or failure of making excuses. I'm definitely scared of the future but I'm not going to let that fear consume me.
Peace within myself is getting closer and closer and its a blessing in disguise....
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