Prom was fun. From getting the rose,getting a manicure,pedicure,&&hair done hours before was cool. Going w| a friend,taking pictures,eating during the cocktail hour thinking about real food,being supised that the real food we thought tht was wasn't until we went to the bigger room,dancing,eating,being with friends was FUN.
Now,I don't know wht to do.I have 4 days left until my semi-big day,Joel && I still haven't finished the tango.I keep messing up little details&&embelishments, I'm trying to figure out how my escorts&&friends will get there, I will learn the Pangando sa Ilaw tomorrow,&&if I practice today with Joel as I hope however,being unplanned,I need to be home early for sure to practice for some song that I also have not practiced til probably a little later or right after this blog. Plus if I do practice w| Joel && call him now,he's asleep like the last time I called him.
Only a few days left for so many things it's a little depressing&&a little comforting when it's all over && I try to get used to it&&all the unwanted changes are changing as they always do which makes life difficult. It's part of growing up && it's the very part of life that we live for instead of being monotnous.
Hopefully if I don't go to summer school.then && only then will I really figure out wht I want to do in life or have a better ideal. I know it doesn't have to be set in stone && I have tht leeway of changing majors that haven't been set,but all in all, I'm placing all my burdens,troubles,&& decisions into the Hands of Our Father Above.
Not only have I been praying within a pattern of on && off,but my thoughts in itself are in words only God can hear&&prayers of hope&&despair. To truly trust with faith&&desire,but to sing like the voices of angel choirs. To sing from the heart && dance with the souls of my feet listening to the beat, to be happy once again just like the feeling up until I was age ten. Hoping to feel that again would my world be turned back upright,to know && feel everything in my life was closeness&&tight. Tight in the "ghetto"tense && not so stressful,but now that I'm a little older,that part of mylife is just a memory far away,dmn I sound dreadful....
Four days left&&I'm freaking out! I hope this all goes as planned!
*prays&&crosses fingers&