believes

aww man, so me being bored i cut my bangs..not too bad,but not i definitely miss the length of them. It's semi-fine knowing that they'll grow back anyway. I'd just like to get my hair trimmed anyway. But the last time i chopped off a good length soo...not ready for that. Aside from that, I believe. I believe that it really isn't just coincidences in life that happen, it really is God's incidents. His Plan although not always clear cut, its 'perfect'. So I may have blanked out on my midterms in general,but not horribly either. But as someone has told me, i shouldn't count my chickens before they hatch...soo i'll just have to wait and see. I've been doing that a lot lately...waiting&seeing...
As perusual, there's always something that we wait for in life or really in the present moments. And well so far as I know, the whole waiting process is seriously anxiety filled but all worth the wait when the wait seems to be 'over'. All that means to me nowadays is that there isn't an end. Always a new beginning. In the processing of my train of thoughts, 'the end' concerning anything is only another begininng. It may not always be what we expect. But when we think back, although we'd like to have that chance to change one or two things,there's nothing we want to despite our current circumstance.
I believe, it really IS HIS PLAN&&NOT MINE. the suprises and blessings no matter how twisted,make life all the more worth taking time for appreciation instead of depreciation. SO that may not be everyday but in all appreaciate more than anything else.
On another note, so as of late..where I've been at the times I've been and why still doesn't make sense to me. Not that its anything close to being bad or anything of that sort,its actually very happy-go-lucky for me. which is why it doesn't make sense. Here I am blogging about appreciation,but it is still also very foreign to me personally. I've been told I'm afraid of the good things that come in life. Yes, I'm being hypocritical here, but it is very critical...i'm afraid of happiness... what's with that? it's all processing within my being slowly but surely,to a feeling of security&peace...afraid as of now...but slowly and surely it is fading away. I find myself a little bit of at ease.Not concerning college but at the same time yes. Because as I've stated above, it's HIS PLAN, NOT MINE.
I do pray though that the several friendships I have with people grow stronger and well 'restart' or just start xD that is what I pray is in HIS PLAN for me.

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