trapped

have you ever felt trapped inside?
As of right now, it's as if the life I seem to be living at this very moment can only be looked upon from afar. It's as if I see a world being looked upon through a snow globe...the ones that have characters that move. I feel trapped in a bubble where only so few people can pass through && see what exactly seems to be holding me in. I'm trapped in fear,worry&doubt...maybe this is just one of those weeks where it's like I'm riding on a roller coaster,going through loops,ups && downs...yeah the roller coaster that is life.So I've cried in front of people where I tried to hide. It only worked for maybe a few seconds.I feel displaced,uncertain,insecure && blinded. I know there's different events occurring && I'm taking for granted what I have going for me && for the ones around me who love me && me loving them. I'm seeing my very world from afar for a reason. Stepping back from it all before I step foward to embrace my world fully. So what if I've vented,cried,&& emotionally teared myself down. Running away I had initially thought that I'd be better off. Now,I've only realized how much I'm just looking for inner peace that no one but God can bless me with. Being as silent as I have been around certain people has hurt me more than anything,but it has also helped me..sorry