from my tumblr.

I’m not sorry I don’t love you the way you say you love me. I’m not judging you because you’re basically “using me” as your excuse to get drunk every night or every other night and smoke ever since I told you to not “wait for me”. We were so chill before you told me “I love you” and took every chance we’d chill to convince me otherwise in changing my mind. It’s not fair to either one of us because it wouldn’t be right&well honestly, I’d rather not deal with you. I told you from the start I didn’t love you the way you’d like me to. And no, it’s not because I don’t care for you. It’s just that I’m fully aware of how you’d perceive my acts of caring towards you in a different light. I mean, you already have and it just makes things that much harder for no reason. I can’t be “that girl” for you. As messed up as it might sound or as it is, it wasn’t you telling me how you felt that changed our communication, it was the fact that because my answer wasn’t what you wanted to hear you brought it upon yourself to feel worthless as a person in search for people’s sympathy to tell you what you already know..How you are worth more than you think&it’s not completely necessary to have a girlfriend to say you have a girlfriend. But instead of realizing your worth&/or value of self..you are drowning yourself in alcohol. WAY TO GO.

BUT I really wish you wouldn’t use “if we were together,i’ll stop drinking/smoking just for you” in every other conversation we actually try having when you are SOBER.