i did it again

I took what wasn't mine&instead was hurt through it all,this whole time. The words you've said,empty promises unfulfilled,because you thought it'd be easier to sweet talk me through it all, tell me you're "sorry". "sorry for leaving me every single time" Well now, it's me that's sorry because your pride and my pride,we don't talk at all. Not even as friends. Why? Because apparently I just come back, like a "boomerang" RIGHT?! I'm glad this is how you've decided what's "best for the both of us.." But I'm dying inside because I let you in, not knowing this is what happens when I don't listen. Oh wait, no I already knew this. I just thought and hoped it'd be different because you're different. Well I thought you were at least. Now, unfortunately we're the two people we promised each other we'd never be. However, although you'll never see this&obviously if I posted this on tumblr,you'd see this is just FOR YOU! I'm just ranting,as perusual. I really hope you still remember me telling you that all I really want for you is to be happy. &how that will never change. It still won't. I just pray our pride doesn't allow this to continue the way it has been..I miss you beeseees. But just because I miss you doesn'y mean that'll bring us back to where we once used to be. WAAAH,I see you're happy&that's what IS BEST. I pray you get better since I know you're still feeling sick =/ djs;fkafjs;afh