you're unbelievable

Seriously,what's with the double meaning of your gestures. You're unbelievable! No wonder there are people asking me or calmly putting their input on what they see. I amaze myself with what I seem to be doing and the reasons that confuse the minds of of others. So this is what it's come to? This is what you're trying to do to me? You're driving me insane! I can't help it if I'm trying my best to understand you. If I'm trying to get through to you since its frustrating to others. How can one your friends be so annoyed with you at the moment? How can you stand being "OK" with your speaking terms. This isn't anything "new" apparently when it comes to you. But maybe,maybe I've been blinded by all your over-bearing behavior. Your somewhat protective aura. I can't help but wonder and question...what is it exactly that makes you tick? What exactly do I mean to you? Am I so wrong to wonder? Why is it so important for me to be in a certain place for the next four years of "my" life? What makes it any different from where I'm already headed? Is it the fact that you're always going to be there and visit as you already do now? These are only "hypothetical" questions. But seriously, when will I wake up from this reality that you've been sucha great part in that I won't feeel the need to wonder anymore and just KNOW. Why must we be so complex in such a way that it acutally works for the both of us yet it is soo complicated to explain? Are we that complex or is there a "we" at all? If you can answer me this one question I rest mycase...
The day you told me what you "wished" for, was that a joke? or was there truth in it? Because if there is truth in it, do you really think that much of me let alone not respect me?
You're unbelievable,and yet I'm the fool who fell for you and you're the one who caught me when I fell and were the last to push me off the ledge.


blahblahblah ramblings of nothingness.since theyre already solved done and over with, kayy thanks =D