Monday, July 27, 2009

getting stronger by adeaze

listen to me im feeling afraid
of something in my life that is wrong
and dont try tell me that im ok
dont worry because i am strong
i know it gets hard sometimes
but remember that im only human
and the things that i face are the
same things that you can help me to over come

i dont want nobody else
i dont need somebody else
to tell me about love
i am strong on my own
but if you think you can tell me
why the things im doing is going wrong
its just me getting stronger
well im gonna tell you that im ok
that with or without you im the same
but dont get me wrong im still waitin for the day
when we can say we went all the way
life is about all the meaningful things
that we get to share with each other
so leave the past behind and each other
we'll find our love is strong again

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

I may not have all the anwers,I never said I did. But I've truly realized that He is the Way the Truth and the Life. I may not be able to please everyone and I can't say that I'll be myself if I did try pleasing everyone. I'm human after all. I'm finished trying to learn the hard way. I'll try learning vicariously again. I don't want to keep certain situations in life a secret. I shouldn't feel the desperate need to keep my life in secrecy. Yes, there are certain things that'll be kept secret the things that are only known between Him and me. I mean one of the last secrets I kept that was somewhat serious was when I was in relationship, but that was back in December..I still keep in touch though =) but anyway..ever since then I've started the year single and continue to be single.

For a while now, I guess that's been on my mind. Where I'd be if I was still with him. Being that within less than a month from now we'd be a year. But where has this year gotten me? It's gotten me through several circumstances. To certain places that I'd never want to visit and places I'd love to go back too. Certain places that remind me of how simple life used to be, places that all I feel is peace&comfort. Places where I've never been to before and only revisit given it's with the same person or people. I can't say I've learned too much. But I've realized how friends come and go. If graced at their own discretion, they come back around. One thing other than God that has kept me going are my bestfriends. Although they don't know just how much they mean to me or well sometimes I feel it goes unnoticed, I wouldn't be who I am. For one they all have different places in my being that will be theirs forever.

run everywhere run somewhere
run maybe some distant place
<3